Monthly Archives: April 2011

What are you wearing?

One of my best friends called me last week and told me about a situation that was both exciting and conflicting for her. She has been working as an intern for months and just took a paying job two weeks ago at a place that has benefits, a decent salary, and would give her steady experience in her field. Then she got a phone call from another company she used to work for: she has the opportunity to work as the right hand lady to someone with a lot of influence. This the job she was “working up to” with the one she just accepted, and BOOM, opportunity granted. The problem is, it pays a little less and will probably be a bit harder. In the long run though, it may be a better career move.

When she was asking me for advice, we were making pros and cons lists for her: staying at her current job VS. taking on a harder job for a while that could set her years ahead. We went back and forth for a while, then after a while I asked her:
Melissa,*  it’s five years from now and you are going to work. What are you wearing?

This question really helped her out…and then I started thinking about it for myself. Before Christ, I really didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life. I just tried literally everything and weeded through my options. When I let God into my life, I had an even harder time having vision for my life.

At a panel discussion at the Gospel Music Association’s Immerse Conference last year, I asked, “Everyone here is talking about vision. I’m confused because I just want God’s perfect will for my life, and I’m scared of dreaming because…well…what if my dreams don’t line up with what God wants for my life?”

The panel went on to quote Psalm 37:4 (Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desire of your heart)  and explain how God actually PLANTS dreams and visions in our hearts. I was even more confused when I left, but over the last few months I’ve come to learn the following:

1) As we focus on God, our vision starts aligning with His vision.
2) Never be so attached to a dream or a hope in anything on this earth that you couldn’t give it up for His will for your life. If you do need to give it up–remember what an exciting thing it is to have the chance to prove your love. Love is sacrificial.
3) Allow God to do what He wants. He plants vision inside of us, but sometimes we have to step back and let Him move the pieces together. Other times we have to put in the work. It is important to be sensitive to which of those times it is.

I guess the most important lesson I’m learning is that it IS okay to have vision…so long as it is submitted to God and our hope is in HIM and not IN the vision itself. I’m finding that having that vision keeps me from being foolish with today, but I can only do my best with today and trust Him to lead me towards that vision. Nothing I can do is going to propel it forward or cause it to be. I HAVE to be content with today. For me, my state of mind about today is usually indicative of how much I’m trusting Him about tomorrow.

I really don’t know everything (SURPRISE!) but based on what I’m learning I present the following challenges that have helped me:

If you’re having a hard time imagining your future: close your eyes and imagine what you’re wearing in five years. Are you working towards that goal? Also remember that you can turn your life around until you’re dead. The word “vision” doesn’t just apply to 20 year olds.

If you do have (Godly) vision: Sincerely evaluate if you’re still trusting in God to bring that dream to fulfillment. Remember the character of God. Is He not faithful? Have you been?

THE RETURN

Hey friends!

Took a little break from blogging due to wallowing in self pity over dumb circumstances…writers block.

Here’s the deal:

I haven’t felt as inspired by life lately. But you know what: I just turned 23, I’m blonde again (aka MYSELF again) and it’s time to make some “New Year’s” resolutions.

In the last couple of months I’ve felt wrung out, like I’m running a race and I can’t see the finish line, and my legs are uneven so I keep falling down and the gatorade guy kicked me in the head on his way to get delicious blue flave to someone else. Something like that.

I felt like this despite the following things totally being true/coming together in the midst of it all:

My friends are great. Seriously.
My parents love and support me and are wells of wisdom.
My mentors are the best. I cannot believe how amazing they are.
My financial situation is turning around in a way that HAS to be God.
Opportunities are opening up right and left.
I got an amazingly gorgeous FREE guitar. SENT to me.  Blessing parade.

God is totally stretching my faith and building my character. I can say in the last year I have grown into a WOMAN. That word used to gross me out. Actually I still don’t like it, but it’s what I am. I think cause it reminds of “womb.” WOMB-man. Ew. Though the word “wombat” doesn’t freak me out at all.

For now, lets stick to “WHOA-man.” Cool? K thanks.

ANYWAY

God is good. He is faithful. It’s me that’s such a complaining HO…sea’s wife. My Pastor told me this a few days ago, “God is working on you with the practical things, and not as much the spiritual, so He feels distant and it’s painful. But you’re probably growing more now than you ever did in the super spiritual times.” And you know what…he’s totally right (again.)

It just isn’t FUN right now. I remember when life was FUN. But really, my problem with fun has been I’m not allowing myself to have it. I’ve had this mentality like “Here I am waking up in everything sucks world.” AND ITS SO DUMB. Everything God has for us is ours for the taking, including JOY. So lately I have a new mentality: CHOOSE JOY. I wrote it on my hand to remind myself…and it’s working. Seriously try it:

When that same person uses you as a receptacle for their negativity again– CHOOSE JOY
When some unforeseen task gets in the way of the goals you set our for your day– CHOOSE JOY
When your bank account says $67 and your phone bill says $82– CHOOSE JOY BOO!!!

Because really, what can you do?

Yeah sometimes life just isn’t fun. But God’s promises are for you and if you aren’t living with the faith that He is going to come through, then you might want to ask yourself what you’re actually living for. Putting my faith and hope in the Lord are becoming the keys to my JOY. 

Hebrews 10:35-38

Do not let this HAPPY TRUST  in the Lord die away, no matter what happens. Remember your reward! You need to keep on patiently doing God’s will if you want Him to do for you all that He has promised. His coming will not be delayed much longer. And those whose faith has made them good in God’s sight must live by faith, trusting Him in everything. Otherwise, if they shrink back, God will have no pleasure in them.

So my B-day resolution this year: Trust God, choose joy.


The joy of the Lord is my strength. Neh 8:10
Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart Psalm 37:4
…etc

We wait so much for our strength to bring us joy, or for the fulfillment of our desires to bring us joy. Why not be joyful first? 

“Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.Phil. 4:11

It’s not easy, but I’m giving it a shot.